you've got to be kidding me

there's nothing like being without a car to make you feel like a kid again. and i've been without a car for maybe two hours. i had to have emili pick me up for our chips and salsa time and i have to have my parents pick me up for thanksgiving tomorrow since my car can't get into the shop until friday. i have to rely on other people for my rides? i feel like i'm 14 or something. it's so weird. it's amazing how hard it is to lose the freedom that comes with having a vehicle. so glad i don't have a normal day tomorrow though, cause i would probably be freaking out. yea for holidays!

one word challenge

You can only use one word...Not as easy as you may think.
1. Yourself: stretched
2. Your husband: unknown
3. Your hair?: natural
4. Your mother?: cheerleader
5. Your Father?: complicated
6. Your Favorite Item: phone
7. Your dream last night: nothing
8. Your Favorite drink: latte
9. Your Dream Car: works
10. The Room You Are In: office
12. Your fear: blood
13. What you want to be in 10 years: myself
14. Who you hung out with last night?: friends
15. What You're Not?: fake
16. Muffins: blueberry
17: One of Your Wish List Items: sleep
18: Time: lunch
19. The Last Thing You Did: type
20. What You Are Wearing: sweatshirt
21. Your Favorite Weather: rain
22. Your Favorite Book: bible
23. The Last Thing You Ate: yogurt
24. Your Life: transitioning
25. Your Mood: contemplative
26. Your body: tired
27. Who are you thinking about right now?: someone
29. What are you doing at the moment?: concentrating
30. Your summer: hot
31. Best part of your life: people

death and life, life and death, right next door to each other

seriously, is it really only wednesday? it's been the longest week ever. things have been pretty non-stop since last thursday, when my grandma died. i don't have living grandparents anymore. that's weird. family holidays just got even more boring, cause now there's no one around to tell us about her adventures in the cia or whatever other stuff she was making up at the moment. but overall, i've been strangely jealous of her - she's in the presence of God. i can't imagine that, but i dream of it sometimes. i'm so happy for her. she may have been difficult to live with, but she loved God. mom said she would sing "Jesus loves me" as my mom would push her around in her wheelchair, and that she would talk about God all the time during her last couple of years of life. of course, she usually just repeated the same stuff over and over again, so that's probably part of the reason she talked about anything all the time. but she was the first person in my family to accept Christ, and now she's with Him. that's truly amazing. i've also been amazed by the outpouring of love that i've received, almost every time i turn around, i'm getting cards or flowers or plants or phone calls or emails or something. i am incredibly blessed to have some really great people in my life, and i'm very thankful. it's weird to have your heart hurt because of one thing, and to have it feel so joyful and blessed at the same time. it's full of death and life right now. i couldn't figure it out if i tried.

things i am loving right now

dreyer's pumpkin ice cream
amy's organic frozen dinners
walks with linsey
cooler weather
tropical passion tea lattes from coffee bean
talking about blue like jazz with my growth group
watching 'hitch' over and over again
scrapbooking for prayer team
football
making dinner with friends
floodhigh
grey's anatomy
women's health magazine
wearing sweaters and sweatshirts
the smell of cinnamon and spice
dreaming
october inc
windows live mail